well. its the same routine all over again. But there's something to look forward to- i have two days leave! on thursday and friday. =D. although. one of the day will be for dance.

i so hope that. wednesday will arrive sooner than i think. HAHAH =D

i really don't see why we are doing all this for him. its like. u are the one who wants this. and u are making us all stressed up. we are not professional dancers. The frequency of practice has not been this intense for a long time already. and the whole day down. just want us to keep doing the same action all over and over again. i mean, i know the the date is near but this doesnt mean we have to give in all for this. is this realization or starting to like think for myself. not as in selfish but like, we have other things to be busy with, and its seems that he is taking for granted that we will always commit. people who don't also get chosen. they can come as and when they like without letting us know or something. so if they can, why cant we? because if we don't start rejecting,it will all be on US. which is really like taken for granted.

Competition is a good experience for us. but with the space, time,energy and people constraint, what else do u want out of it. okay. i don't regret dancing this competition, but there's nothing there to convince me to put in my heart and soul into the dance. because- i don;t even know what the dance is talking about. okay.about sweet dreams and reality. so why do we have to be cute,happy,sad, anger,intense? i don see and i don feel. so stop telling me that u don't feel anything.



work tmr. i hope i wont commit mistake again. i hope for at least this three days. please let me balance and nothing major occurs. PLEASE.

dancey Sunday.

weekend is over... just like that... AGAIN>
nvm. HAHAH back to work is good too.. i hope i get my leave soon.. and don start saturday banking for another month. HAHA
=D good.

why am i even still dancing or rather what am i dancing for?
dancing for my passion. get nth in return. sacrifice EVERYTHING. up to the max limit.
and its still not enough. he will always ask for more. to people who are stupid enough to always give in to him.

like what? entertainers- shinee super junior? or another other group or individual. they trained hard to bring entertainment to the fans, bring money to the company and themselves, make their parents proud of them.

me? us? we trained hard, perform every now and then for? to fulfill my desire of passion for dance. sacrifice the time with my parents, my grades for studies,my social life. no. we don't earn money. we don't earn respect. we are just toys that are being make use of.

i suddenly don know what else to say.

long time no see.

ok. I am not stuck at deciding what i want already.
i've already started working in citibank. for about one month already.
going to have to get use to working life.
its like inception. living in a dream. everything everything exactly the same?
i must start thinking about my future plans. cause i really don see myself working long term in citibank.

hmmmm. dance lately is giving me a lot of problems.
Are they really problems or is it just me.
not respected. and i don even have freedom of speech.
despite feeling this way, i still have to put up a smiling face in front of them.
the world is all about being fake. so this proves that the saying that life is actually a drama is so true.

just i will have to get used to it and get on with life.
because i only have one chance in life.
i cant waste my time and energy on this unnecessary matters.

i should start planning on what to do on weekends when i quite dance.
i don exactly know when i will quit but, all i can say is- it will be REAL soon.

for some reason, everything i try to upload a photo
the whole browser hangs.
so i give up. hhahhaa. =D

just finished my 12 days working in herbal life. =D
it was fun and enjoyable to be at the counter serving people.
but it can be very annoying with some irritating customers>.<

anyway, i have got rejection letter from NTU already.
so maybe its a sign that i should not be in the teaching career? HAHA
but ruo ning says its a waste if i'm not a teacher. HAHAHAH
should get over with mu lian and taiwan trip before settling down =D

ADDICTION.
to bonamana! =D hahahahha
shinee is waiting too long to have a comback hahah
so i shall hop over to suju first. =D
gaaah.. tmr is a long day. and i need to sleep early. haha
tata~

taemin is so sweeeeet. awwwwwwww

bu lai en shu shu and DADDY!

DADDY and shortie jie jie

eh. jo.tong.en. HAHAHAH

beef steamboat! =D

super cute shirt. special memory.


gaah. a post after sometime.
time pass just like nobody's business.
now.my only hope.
is to get into NIE.
if i really cant.
then so be it.

i will get some job.
SOME.KIND
maybe surveyor? HAHA

don know why. typing this blog entry somehow makes me feel a little down.
so scared to faced the truth that i cant get into NIE.
when will i know?

just shoot the answer in my face.
then i can give up and look for other jobs.
stop wasting my time
>.<

okay okay. long day tmr. hate it.
waste of time totally.
DANCE used to be the love of my life
but now.
its just a habit
JUST.
and no korean class tmr! >.<
so sad.
love of my life korean!
i wish. i can do something related to korean studies or something. GAAAAH

time can turn us all into ashes,what's left are memories

eh. knees are spoiling because of pan lao shi's dance!
it hurts even when i run across the road.
YES! its that bad.
hahah. okay okay. i will learn to dance properly.!
but sometimes when u are too engrossed in the dance,
u wont notice whether ur knees hurt.
its always at the end of the day when ur knees start to swell.
must bring knee guard!

Monday [월요일]
was rotting all the way in the MORNING.
then i was so bored in the afternoon that i started cleaning up my room!
my desk, my cabinets.
But my wardrobe was still not tidied up. haha
my mother simple just give up in asking me to fold my clothes.
kekeke.
the longest time that i can maintain the look of my wardrobe after i have tidy up
is 3 weeks?
THE MOST.
gaah... which is freaking irritating.
why does it gets messy all the time?
왜?
i also don know.
then i started decorating my photo album for TAIWAN.
i. must.be.crazy. to spend over 80 dollars to develop the photos. >.<>.< hahah ="D">.<

he was missed

This. is what i see every morning.
the moment i open my eyes!
Is this considered to be a kind of happiness?
hahahahaha.

this is a toy in MUMMY's car.
was crying my eyes out while holding it. gaaaah.
okay. its time to forget about it.
really.. i wont think about it again.



Date: 이천십녕 사월십일
Venue: Buddha Association
Purpose: dance.
gaaah. today was a total waste of time. don know why we were even there.
ok. anyway. but to the picture.
this is the drink that i had during dinner just now.
sparkling Grape juice!
i bought this because. it was purple. =D

how cute! JH and KEY. gaah.
i know i know.
JH really dont have a character that i adore.
but he's simply cute and handsome.
haaha.. i bet if he sees this. he will be SMIRKING to the MAX.
but whatever. i still adore him! his looks i mean.
and wonderful Key.
hahh i love it when he just admits that he's not as big heart to his members
as compared to yoo geun. =D

*PS.. i had enough of what you two did to me today.
i admit that i mind how others think of me.
but i'm just not going to care about what u guys say.
worry for yourselves instead of me.